Go ahead and take that leap into the 1000 ft. drop and make a splash! Stop following and follow your heart, follow those childish boyish acts of innocence, jump! Its funny what funny can do to you, smile! do you hear that beat in your head that makes you wanna dance, dance!

Nothing beats like your heart beats jumping in joy and happiness, cherish every beat if you can, if not catch the rhythm and record it for those down days, but do stay tuned. Hard becomes the new easy when you smile back in the face of uncertainty, for only you know its time for change, change is good, change is critical to move out into another box, paint your box with lots of sunshine, rainbows and smily faces.

Each corner we take, each bend in the road leads somewhere, each bump, hick-up is nothing but a temporary glitch, find the new update and restart now, not later. Some habits are hard to break, admitting you have a bad one is half the solution. Respect yourself in order for people to respect you back, go ahead and hug yourself and say I love me( say it!).

Gifts and surprises are not seeked for their monetary values as you know, cherish your gifts, for you have many.Most of our gifts we know, but take for granted, some we don’t even know until they are gone, make good use of your gifts.Find inner peace first, then seek world peace, relax, take it one step at a time.

People you meet daily are precious gems awaiting your arrival, each one comes with its own hidden secrets and magic, each one has in them energy and wisdom for you to gain, embrace knowledge through people. Respect individuals for their true person, not their title or what they do in life for a living, be equal and see the beauty. Listen twice as much as you talk, the evidence we have is two ears and one mouth, that seems to sound right.

Opposites attract, watch out for what you attract, the attraction factor multiplies when you are attracted to your weaknesses, seek what you really want, and you shall be rewarded. Stay free spirited, look everywhere, keep your options open, and open your arms as wide as you can when you find your happiness. Give everyone a chance or two, in turn they might do the same, if not you know that you tried your luck, for the harder you work, the luckier you get.

If you see someone you like, imagine your life video playing with them in the scene, how do you feel, do you get goose bumps, or the measles? If you find that you need them to join a part of your journey, or all the way to the end, then what are you waiting for? Kiss them without them expecting it, hug them, touch them, send your signals and await the reply. Watch them eat their meal and enjoy the sight, look for signs of cuteness and simplicity, what do you think?

Small talk is big talk where I come from, sometimes the messages inside small talk are more important than heavily revised How to guides, small talk your way into their way. Look them in the eyes, look away and wonder what it would be like when you can catch their breath. I could imagine me and you, you and me, together, having fun, discovering each other from another angle, playing to each others tunes, romancing the moments. Turn up the volume, hone in to their frequency and listen in, do you like what you hear, go for it.

Run fast or slow, but do run, run in any way or form you prefer, feel the wind in your hair, feel your heart beats adapting to your wild spirit, your spirit needs training every once in a while, run free, follow through and see what happens, but don’t stay motionless.

Why do I feel I want to dance with you? why do I feel I will? why do I want to take you away for a while? Why not? our moves remind me of chess, someone will eventually win, be it mastery or the other someone gets fed up and calls it quits and gives in, I love your moves. I know what will happen, my little genie friend told me, he says me and you will move it up a notch, and we do like each other, we weigh options wisely and sometimes haphazardly, but we do calculate outcomes. I always hated math! you do the math.

Please excuse me for changing the subject, it was my free soul running wild on me again

The soul is born old but grows young. That is the comedy of life. And the body is born young and grows old. That is life’s tragedy.

Oscar Wilde- from A Woman of No Importance, 1894

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me@mamdoohalradadi.com

The noise, the movement, the speed, the survival, the routines, the must do’s, the must not’s, the action, the competition, the money, the greed, the need, the faces, the fakes, the nosey, the brilliant, the magnificent, the dull, the wonderful, the sexy, the challenges, the race, the heat, the shivers down your spine, the pollution.

Press mute.

Love it, feel and breath that in. Its called silence, nothing but you and the surround system in your head. The little voices, the peace, the smooth slow motion action, its soothing and comforting, just like southern fried chicken. Relax those overworked sensors all over you, take a break, take a pause, silence.

Its good every once in a while to get away into your own contained world, when you do this, you get the chance to go back and forth to see what and where you stand in the today. People will not let you practice this amazing mute button we have, force it. Imagine your on a beach and are slowly getting further from shore into the skies above with a half hour parasailing joy ride. As you rise, the volume goes lower.

Nothing but the sound of distant seagulls and wind, silence.

We deprive ourselves of the simplest pleasures and rejuvenating experiences we can have anytime and wait till vacation time. You can do it now, silence. There are many additions to this mute button once you get used to it. You can start to mute the thoughts and ideas in your head, let the fun ones at the beach or on holiday rule your thinking cap for a few moments. Nice smile you got there! Hold it, and every once in a while, silence.

Take yourself on a long drive in a top down ride on any open highway. Let the wind and the sounds of the long road ahead wipe out all that tension building up, relax, breath it all in, close your eyes, its ok the car is on auto drive, to relieve your drive. You wish sometimes to place your finger on that chatter boxes mouth and go “shhhhh” don’t bring what your partner threw on you round here friend. Silence.

Soft music playing in the background, a mix of waves and a spanish guitar would brush away the mighty pollution we live in, people tend to go into pollute overdrive if you give them a chance. it comes in 3 sizes: Small, Medium and extremely heavy doses of social blah blah. Silence.

I seem to be taken as a person on the rude side of manners in some areas. Those areas include personal space and me time, call me selfish, guilty as jack the Ripper, silence.

Being able to read people is an art, you can’t expect to excel and thrive in a world of rising competition and changing attitudes while staying illiterate. You need to speak the lingo to be understood and accepted, silence is a good start. People should be polite to the polite, what happens is politeness is greeted with more aggressive space invasions and reckless manners. Oh how I sometimes miss silence.

You don’t have to travel to the furthest tropical paradise to find peace. You can find it in your living room, your car, your shower, your space, your time.

And now its time to place a finger on my fingers and go”shhhhh” Good night everyone.

mamdooh.alradadi/ me@mamdohalradadi.com

A lover knows only humility, he has no choice.

He steals into your alley at night, he has no choice.

He longs to kiss every lock of your hair, don’t fret,

he has no choice.

In his frenzied love for you, he longs to break the chains of his imprisonment,

he has no choice.

A lover asked his beloved:

- Do you love yourself more than you love me?

Beloved replied: I have died to myself and I live for you.

I’ve disappeared from myself and my attributes,

I am present only for you.

I’ve forgotten all my learnings,

but from knowing you I’ve become a scholar.

I’ve lost all my strength, but from your power I am able.

I love myself…I love you.

I love you…I love myself.

I am your lover, come to my side,

I will open the gate to your love.

Come settle with me, let us be neighbors to the stars.

You have been hiding so long, endlessly drifting in the sea of my love.

Even so, you have always been connected to me.

Concealed, revealed, in the unknown, in the un-manifest.

I am life itself.

You have been a prisoner of a little pond,

I am the ocean and its turbulent flood.

Come merge with me,

leave this world of ignorance.

Be with me, I will open the gate to your love.

I desire you more than food or drink

My body my senses my mind hunger for your taste

I can sense your presence in my heart

although you belong to all the world

I wait with silent passion for one gesture one glance

from you.

I had to share this portrait of words with you, i found it on one of Buddha Bar’s albums, and I love the accompanying music with it, give it a go:Desire

p.s. remember to close your eyes and let go

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me@mamdoohalradadi.com

My life has witnessed many ups & downs, more downs than ups, down’s pave my future ups, each one higher than its predecessor. Dips they call them. Some small, some steep & deep. I eagerly await my next dip, for behind each dip, there is a valley, and with it comes my new mountains to climb & conquer, keep climbing!

I never saw a straight line climbing success. If you analyze the line closely you will see the downs and dips, with all the pain and suffering, the anxiety, the stress levels at boiling point, its al there cleverly disguised. People sometimes need to fake it till they make it, or in other occasions just contain and never complain about their day, while in reality they suffer as you speak.

Every two and a half years you will face a major crisis in your life, sometimes earlier says success guru Brian Tacey. Not just problems, major crisis and life changing happenings, you will be rocked, Your boat and everything in it will be rocked and rattled, shaked and baked, taken for the life thrilling test drive. To see what your made of.If you manage to stay afloat after this experience, then you are granted a gate pass to the next level, if not, you sink, and remain in the dust of the successful few. Success has a price you know, like everything else in life.

The only difference between success and anything else you buy, is the payment structure. For everything else you pay and receive on the spot or in a few days, for success you pay today in hard work and major contributions and sacrifices, and wait for your turn to receive it, no guarantees!

So why do people still pay upfront for this so called success? with all its pain and hurt, suffering and never clear roads. With all the books and papers, with all that waking up early and focus pokas training. With all those lost friends and fun time, You had to give up so many great activities, including just being a bum! Why?

If you ask me, I can tell you one thing I know, it has a great taste and after taste to it, one that stays long after you digest the fact. Success has a sweet smell and flair to it. Success moves your senses, sometimes you feel areas in your body that you never knew existed. Success is the potion that you rub onto anything you touch and it turns to gold. Success leaves trails and tracks, imagine they are yours? You write it, you ride it. “You can do it!” is one of the many driving factors I used along the way, and I scream out to you all, you too can, so what are you waiting for? start walking that winding road.

They say it has unknown lengths, it does not use miles of kilometers, it uses sweat, hours and more hours,sacrifice, focus, target setting and milestones all mixed up in a big juicer and then whatever comes out is the new measure for that part of the road.

When faced with doubt, doubt that doubt and cross it out. Go with the GROW and follow your gut feelings, your internal success compass knows more than the average friends that surround you, respect yourself and listen to your guiding systems at all times.

“If you want to take your mission in life
to the next level, if youre stuck and
you dont know how to rise, don’t
look outside yourself. Look inside.”

p.s. sorry for the short note, 1+1=2 and not some essay elaborating on the exact answer. Now you have saved more time to enjoy your day

mamdooh.alradadi

me@mamdoohalradadi.c

Where did I put that manual on life again, I can’t seem to find it when I need it most? OH! I forgot I don’t have one. They never told us that we could do it again after falling down, they never gave us permission for another go, they never gave us the rules of engagement in this oh so ever exciting life. If you were to sum up all the various directions we got when we were young and wild, it would have to be GO!

If the only direction is forward, with some back momentum for push, then GO! would be it.

We seem to have a never ending supply of “Go, bump, move away, continue, go some more, walk,run, slow down, stop, look around, GO!” we know that one, but what happens when we have a head on collision and seem to be a bit dizzy and have a loss of direction and start to just walk on, in any direction, then we find that the road travelled has unfamiliar terrain, and is getting more and more harder to cover. We stop, analyze, think about the situation and sometimes get lost in the analysis.

We stall. Don’t! just GO!

Don’t take too long to uncover the bleeding and suffering, don’t take too much time analyzing the hurt, the betrayal, the shocks, the losses.. you need to keep moving, you need to think and move, we had a laid back life, now its faster and only the fit can survive or be left in the rubble, get up and move. Go!

People will not forgive you under any circumstances. They will laugh at you on your way down, and envy you on your way up, at least give them a hard time. This is the real exam in life to move on to the next level, you change course in due course, you take the first step up, you wave and smile, you GO!

When you concave upon yourself, you start the manifestation of a nation of negative village people, burn the village down, it will not be a criminal act, on the contrary you will be helping yourself and remember they are all temporary useless friendships based on that energy sucking I talked to you about in the past. They will suck you dry to the last drop, use whatever it takes to keep at least one spark of positivity and ignite yourself, GO!

Travel light. Dump the luggage. Use minimal tools. GO! back to basics. Reveal your true potential. Get close and personal with success. Fake it till you make it. Find laughter in your mishaps. Seek energy from food and sports, read, watch uplifters. Shy away from sad, explore happiness. Enroll in life’s bounties. Watch what you hear. Be clear and definitive on your goals. Unleash the beast within you. GO! back to age 4 if you have to. Pull on your wonderful memory. Hold that thought, GO!

When down, lower your negative intake. Claim the victory and celebrate your small wins. Strike evil between the eyes. Push and shove for your smiles. When you smile the whole world smiles back. Powerful emotions and eruptions take place when you strike X that marks the spot. GO!

NIKE says Just do it! we can do that, we can do it, we did it so far, we do it day in day out, doing is believing, just did it was what you did, you know how its done, you can move faster than before, doing it over and over again means you can, why not do it again?

Nothing beats a good days GO!

When we know, we grow, we show, we flow, we glow, we always GO!

March on. Do not tarry. To go forward is to move toward perfection. March on, and fear not the thorns, or the sharp stones on life’s path. Khalil Gibran

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me@mamdoohalradadi.com

What would happen if an F-16 or a new Jumbo Jet landed in the time of the Romans, or the Pharoe’s or even before or surprised Jenkis Khan during his domination?What would the look on their faces be when they thought their invention of gun powder was the new might and you nuked them? OK that’s mean, how about I take on a whole army with one machine gun and some grenades?

What if I showed them a trick or two with my little toy planes and laser pointers, or stunned them with a Hummer truck, ran them over with a 1940 Panza Tank during one of the stupid wars to take more ground? How about introducing a TV with a DVD player with real people playing a sport which will only be known after another 1000 or so years?

What if I take a photo of them and show them what they look like, how about I introduce the mirror and then shortly after that introduce creams and cosmetics, the Hair brush and comb, the scissors, the electric shaver, the perfume… now you would have to start think marketing here, would it actually be too early for manhood? maybe they liked their stink, they loved their hairy bodies, the ugly nose was fashionable, and so forth.

Now lets dive deeper, if your an average human, you know the house fly, that little pest that comes in and sits on your favorite food or warms itself with your coffee in a cold room, well imagine the technical one made by humans. Now take that and take it only 100 years back to 1910 what do you think will happen to the guys behind the innovations you enjoy today?

What about the small and big creatures we keep finding on our planet? the ones that cant see but have headlights to lure smaller creatures for survival? we still don’t know, but insist on knowing more and more, it never ends, and if it does then you just started to get the big  picture. They say innovate, don’t imitate, irrelevant yet so powerful in its deep meanings.

How about the satellite this and the satellite that? remember back in the 80’s the large formats of videos and arcade games? well how would you like to walk around back then as a teenager with a mobile phone that has it all and so. so much more stuff? What would the fancy cameras and KODAK do when you slap them with a digital photo? And how about that famous TV producer and Hollywood gang do when you dig out of your purse a video camcorder the size of a pack of cigarettes? what would MP3 do to the music industry in the 70’s 80’s and 90’s forget mozart and the other bunch of amazing musicians.

Now when we hold our breath and dive a bit more, i want you to capitalize on this day & ages technological breakthrough’s in medicine and saving people. What would the grandaddy of modern day science Leonardo Da Vinci do with all his breakthroughs, I guess he would be a happy man knowing that he led us so far with so little, great man.

Now lets take a thing we only say WOW! when we see a new model and move on with our day. Back in the early 1900’s or even in the wild wild west days, or take it back a bit to the days of the glorious warriors who rode horses as a mean of fast travel, and you guessed right, drive by them in a Range Rover sport or even a speed bike, forget that maybe just cruise by in a laid back Harley. Would they drop dead in fear?

From telling the time to travel, from our modern day science labs to this computer I type on, from the communication tools we complain about to the small italian espresso machine in my living room, from the iphone to the invention of sushi, take a leap of faith into the future and whatever you have today will be tomorrows joke.

We should be thankful for the wishful thinking of our ancestors and everyone in between, we should thank the thinkers, the believers, the funders, the users, the complainers who made things better, we should thank the pessimists and the optimists, the eager beavers and the thrill seekers, the people who swam against the rising tide, the brave boys that took the lead into the unknown should be recognized not only in text books but in daily newspapers to remind the new generation of what it takes to move on in this mysterious world, we should embed the spirit of evolution in every thing we do, we should ask on a continuos basis: what next?” were do we go from here? were are we headed? and keep moving.

Never underestimate the power of questioning, there is no such thing as stupid questions and ideas, they all mean something, in the end.

An important scientific innovation rarely makes its way by gradually winning over and converting its opponents: What does happen is that the opponents gradually die out. Max Plank

I laugh at the people who say they don’t like to take risks. The ones that insist on a certain belief system that they have somehow come to believe and live by day in, day out. The ones that come to banks and say we want low risk investments. The ones that never go out of the ordinary and tread on the normal pathways of earth. The ones that drive safe. The non smokers. The no airplane people. No fun in the sun, swim in the sea knock offs.

Many people believe that they are no or low risk takers. They know nothing!

If you analyze your daily life movements and actions you will come to believe that you are one crazy, lunatic, mad risk taker.

The moment you wake up in the morning or go to sleep at night you are at 100% risk. Its a game of statistics that can play in your favor or against you. You can wake up and fall on the bathroom floor and break your back or neck, or you can sleep and never wake up by choking to death. Scary huh?

Well thank God life is much more kinder than that on humans. We are a tough species.

• The day you learnt to drive, your chances of dying in a car accident increased 100% over your friend that never learnt to drive.
• The raw sushi & sashimi you eat with all its fame & glory can get you to a hospital faster than a speeding bullet if it was rotten, how would you ever know? you trust the sushi place for having fresh fish, that’s how.
• You go to have a botox injection( I am too lazy to check the spelling, Im sure one of the girls/boys will help with this one) to fade away those aging lines and look younger, they ask you if you want to go under anesthesia during the operation, you accept.Let me rephrase that, They ask you if you want to go unconscious under a drug, so they can operate on you without you knowing anything, you might come to, and you might not. You ask me to stop scaring you? you do sign a paper that the hospital is not responsible for you if something goes wrong don’t they?how scary is that?? yet you accept the risk.
• You cross the road every day, hoping that no one will be a lunatic and run you over.
• You go to work in a safety standard environment and forget that the contractor could have sacrificed on the material of the whole building, yet you go daily.
• You drive with your safety belt on, you drive within the set speed limits, you go by the book, and you know that there are a million maniac drivers, some drunk drivers, some brainless teenagers on a joy ride, running red lights in big SUV’s at race level speeds, yet you drive on.
• You use your mobile unit more than you use your brain, you talk and talk till the battery dies, you have heard of the batteries that exploded before, that won’t happen to me we think, yet we blabber away.
• You buy the safest anti virus software and update it automatically and pay away, month after month, and governments get hacked, and still you sign up to that Bank account online and show your finances to the world.
• We buy products day in day out, we hear that water gets contaminated, food gets poisoned, medicine gets tampered with on its way to a shelf near you, and we still shop online.

• The people using protection know that there is a slight possibility of catching a disease or getting someone pregnant, yes its small, but its a risk? so do you continue taking this risk? or become a priest and vow never to get near a female again due to the risk factor? or just take the whole nine yards and go with the flow? people make sacrifices, sometimes in the wrong areas.
• You plug that electrical appliance and you are oh so sure it wont electrify you, you stand in the shower all wet, get down on the marble floor and head to your shaver and plug it, is that insane or normal? you change the lightbulb and think its safe, what about those long ones that explode when they fall to the ground?

You have all these crazy ideas going for you and you call yourself a no risk person, a low risk individual, a medium risk taker, a 100% guarantee buyer. There are no guarantees in life, so why the hassles?

Enough said. Risk is a part of our lives, we live it and we take it daily like vitamins. Stop the whining and move out of your comfort zone that you hide behind calling it names like risk appetite and risk tolerance and sometimes calculated risk.

The last one is a favorite amongst Investors and business people, I am also a big fan, calculated risk, what risk are you wiling to take for the final prize? should you take it or not? that’s another thing.

You know the famous High Risk High Reward saying, its true you know. Sometimes you win, and sometimes you lose, when you win, make those winnings BIG and add some spice in your life, go out and have fun, enjoy the good times.

If I had to do it all again, I would take more risk, and higher reward pots. Even though I am known for my high risk attitude and lifestyle, I still know deep down there is much more risk that needs addressing. I also know that where I am today is due to the many risky roads I travelled and watched people standing on the pavements saying “ there goes that crazy man again with his wild ideas and lifestyle changes” I guess Chris Columbus didn’t think of  what people thought of his travel ideas to make his thoughts more thoughtful and meaningful!

Go out today and do something that scares you. Do something that makes your adrenaline levels sky rocket out of the roof, look RISK in the eyes and dare it, go totally ballistic and take a bit of risk, go ahead now, make hat decision you have been putting off for so long due to non-risk-appetite tolerance levels.

Remember risk takers don’t have a certain look about them, they are normal you & me’s walking and living amongst us, they dive, bunjee jump, sky dive, ski, water ski, play football and rugby, race cars, have wild relationships hoping for the best, they try that new dish on the menu, they basically have more fun.

Take a walk on the wild side, forget managing your risk and show it what it means to be a risk taker, you take the risk, enjoy the outcome, positive or negative, its all good for the heart ;P

” If we listened to our intellect, we’d never have a love affair. We’d never have a relationship. We’d never go into business, because we’d be too cynical. Well, that’s nonsense. You’ve got to jump off cliffs all the time to build your wings on the way down.” Annie Dillard.

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I love it when I arrive at a fancy hotel and they have a big mountain of pillows stacked on the bed in a picture perfect pose,you think twice if you were allowed to touch them while sleeping. We love pillows, they come in different sizes and softness, they can suck you in or give you a neck ache in 5 minutes flat. The pillows resemble many things to many people, to some they are just that, to others they are lovers, secret admirers, secret keepers, tear enhancers, cuddle bags, beating bags, pillow fight ammunition, security, and to many an icon of home sweet home.

If all the pillows in the world could speak, they would tell all the real stuff and what they know could jeopardize cement relationships, but eventually we would have to silence them for the peace and tranquility they deliver.

Imagine the scene: She heads for that long deserved shower after those board meetings, and killer presentation, the fight with the boyfriend, the family ties and fun, the financial discussions, the debts and investments, the whole day was as full as her Louis Vuitton bag last summer, not even space for a toothbrush. Then comes the hotel shower that comes with all those massage outlets, the fluffy clean towels, that herbal essence she carries with her, her favorite shower gel and body scrubs, its all good.

The shower hits her hard on head, washes away the days troubles, she barely opens her eyes watching her fight with her boss going down the drain,drop by drop, one down, 20 to go she thinks.

The shower relieves her from those remaining stress issues, she breathes, she leaves and starts to dry herself, she dries her hair, thinks about it for a minute, looks outside the shower and sees those pillows.

Her lips and body make a sudden twitch, as if a calling, she moves slow, as if seducing the bed pillows, looking away and then catching the pillows looking back at her in total disbelief, she smiles, she is gift wrapped in a fluffy towel, smelling like an italian country side picnic between the flower beds and wonderful weather with a vespa bike parked in the background. She drops the towels, shakes her hair in total Hollywood manner, looks those pillows deep in the eyes, removes some covers, puts one leg on the bed, checks her self in the mirror, dims the lights, ignites the fire on those vanilla and strawberry scented candles, pets those pillows, demands the best one to be her slave for the night, throws herself in slow motion on the pillow, the pillow sucks her in, the impact was bed shattering.

She closes her eyes, takes a small move to the right, tucks herself in, fluffs the covers, her hair sends aromatic scents through the air, she moves.. it increases, she settles it comes to a standstill surrounding her.

The pillow is all over her, she grabs more pillows to guide her through the night, she is sheltered by her favorite friends that never hurt her, only bring out the best in her, she can confide in them, what the shower didn’t wash away, the pillows will surely handle with care, removing any stress or bad memory, hurt, sacrifice or experience out of her way to make it through the dark. She starts with her emotional state, thinking about her relationship and her self requirements against his, she thinks of her story so far, she reveals she did something bad today, the pillow assures her “its ok dear, leave that to me”, she thinks of her parents and how she is so far now, she thinks of forgotten friends and broken promises,she confides with ease.

No one can understand you like your pillow she thinks. Why can’t men be like that? Why can’t women be like that thinks the guy sleeping in room 1406 at the Park Hyatt hotel in Tokyo. Nothing makes me feel so secure at night when I need a hug most, a tuck, a shoulder to cry on, a heart to love, strong warm arms and shoulders, nothing like my pillows she thinks, always there when you need them.

How many tears have pillows sheltered during your life time? How many secrets have they held in the last month? Who makes sure your fine at night, and is moved and spends the night looking after you day in day out? Who accepts to be dumped for another without uttering a word in disbelief? Why do they pack for you and not against you at night? Who looks and feels exactly as you want them to every day for as long as you want them?

Pillows are a rare breed of loyal understanding, trustworthy, objects that are made to serve you as promised. Go ahead sink in

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me@mamdoohalradadi.com

As I land in this new country that barely speaks English in Eastern Europe I wonder what lies ahead for me. I always seem to be alone on my distinctive adventurous exploration trips. I always seem to be excited for the amazing days that face me with great anticipation and admiration like a little boy on a school trip to the forest.

I enter the hotel and unpack after a pleasant ride from the airport with a lady Taxi driver and a nice smiling front desk staff check in. The room is spacious and warm, the weather is cold and so is the scenery with the brutal memories this country holds. As I stand at the window overlooking the city, I can’t take my mind off what has happened here years ago and the despair this country went through with its entire people.

The lobby is fine and large, old and beaten down, redone for saving face reasons. I head to the lounge and ask for a warm cup of coffee and a piece of that delicious looking cake. I am served and loved every minute of it. I take a drag from my cigarette and watch slowly the people around me; all seem to either be on business or just casual family day out at the hotel, all is good and entertaining. A beautiful little girl sits silently with her father enjoying her strawberry tart and juice as he sips on his coffee, she brings tears to my eyes as I remember my darling daughter back home.

I am still all alone.

I move out wearing my heavy coat and meet the tour guide, a 40 plus year old guy that I can relate to, very interesting and very informed, just like people I like, perfect I think. We drive around from place to place, moving slowly from one area to the other. He asks nicely if he can pick up his niece and drop her off, I accept excitedly, more sweet little girls to remind how lonely I am getting. She gets in the car, a wonderful happy child, speaks some Croatian dialect to the guy and off they go, he drives off the beaten track and up and down some wonderful scenery that I can say is purely stunning!

We arrive at this old cottage surrounded by what I call picture perfect natural scenes, just like God intended. Nothing can be more inviting than this. She jumps out of the car and off to meet her granny, I want to live here with my children and family I think.

We drive off and onto our tour we jump, from one place to the other, each place is more inviting than the other, more enchanting and full of history than the previous sight, it just gets better, more I demand, I want more, he delivers every time. I ask him how come the whole country is full of beautiful wonderful looking people, especially women, he replies “that is a nice problem to have, don’t you think?”I agree.

The darkness falls upon us and the weather starts to get really cold, our journey is nearing its end for the day. I have identified where I want to spend the other days of this trip, or should I call my family and ask them to come join me forever in this wonderland? I can see my daughter playing in the wilderness and going to school with me, I can see my mother socializing with the neighbors and my father enjoying the wonderful scenery and pouring his heart into his ever so wonderful writing master pieces. I can see my sister with her children walking over to us, and my brothers getting ready to go out, and my friends passing by to take us out for a wild evening, including a roast lamb over a live fire in the woods with veggie soups and salads, it’s the good life. I can already smell the aroma in the air and feel the comfort of my family.

After the night is over, I am still alone and very lonely, I miss you, whoever you may be, I just know someone should have been with me to share this wonderful experience.

Some guys have all the luck, I am luckier than them I know it. Some have been programmed to live how society dictates them, others like me are dictated by the moment and whatever life throws at them, everything has a price to be paid, Lonely.

I never complain I say, it’s to myself that I say, why do I remain this way? Is it permanent or determinant from my side? Is this the aftermath of my life’s bruises and cruises? Is it me running away from the problems of my days? Is it a discovery journey I had embedded in my subconscious mind to please my inner child? It’s all good as I say, everyday,  brings me closer to my final stay.

I want to have it all I guess, freedom and belonging, escaping and being trapped, flying and being grounded, my parents never held me down, they helped me grow my wings, and I thank them for this blessing and all my flight preparations.

I have to say, I have traveled so far away from my original roots, in every direction and every altitude, I keep on discovering and observing, trying to know the why in why itself, and conducting endless battles with my convictions and beliefs, challenging the cannot in everything that screams not doable. By nature I refuse, by default I become lonely, for how long I question, the answers are in the pipeline, short or long, I can wait, for as you all know, the best is always yet to come.

For so long, I long to belong, I hope I don’t wait till its too late, while fate takes its toll, and I never get to take that stroll with my baby doll and her handsome brother, for so long, and just maybe with the half that completes me.

Cherish the moment, even if you feel lonely, for lonesome is only temporary, unless you are eager for that lonely fever.

Mamdooh.alradadi

me@mamdoohalradadi.com

This is the story of a little girl who grew up in a country called saudi arabia, another country in the planet with opportunities for those who seek them. Why did I relate it to opportunity? because it is and always will be, very simply put any place on earth is, some more than others.

She grew up here, studied some time outside, came back and refused to sidetrack from her friends negative vibrations that seem to have doubled ever since she left them four years ago. She had one friend that adored her, believed in her, knew she was going places. This other girl was a local by all means, and studied at local schools, local colleges, even had a few gigs on the side to help with her expenses, some secretarial, hospital, sales to name a few.

Two girls one mission. Who are they up against? the rest. They know how hard it is to succeed in a country that had nothing in store for ladies and was trying hard to fill the gap steadily.They know many girls who made it to the top of businesses across the country, these girls were not doctors( they seem to have had no problems). They pin pointed their targets in terms of success. They identified the models, the goals they went for, the average time it would take them, and most of all saw the end, felt the success, actually breathed it in every day from that day onwards.

They would meet up casually to talk about their milestones covered, obstacles removed, threats that lay ahead of them. All this while their friends whined some more and stuck to the crowd doing what they do best, follow like a herd. The two girls enjoyed it day by day and had sweet little victory celebrations every once in a while.

They faced society with all they had, faith. They saw every problem as a challenge, tough or soft, they knew it when it came and handled it with care. Many people tried putting them off, including their families and closest of friends, asking them to get married and settle down, they had greater visions not apparent to the eyes of the jealous and clueless many.

As days are numbers and months are more digits, years come and go, a few years later, the two are celebrating their major milestones. Each has managed to carve a place for themselves in prestigious corporations head to head with their rivals, men. Although men seem to want to help, they also have their own back to handle in a fast paced ever so changing competitive business atmosphere.

They start to seek mentors for their coming years of success, all by the book, every inch of the way clearly planned and put to practice. They know that they have moved mountains so far, now its time to move lands,change the face of the earth preparing the arrival of the next generation of female workforce which make up for 50% of the population or a bit more based on some late figures.

Who ever said it was easy they think out loud, but it was real fun and what kept us going was the following major points they write:

• A true visible vision of our dream.
• Real faith in our abilities.
• Not to walk on previous peoples failures, walk around them.
• Keep our vision on track no matter what.
• Leaving the box and living out of the box, wether people liked it or not.
• Faced our fears head on, eye to eye and spoke up.
• Used our brains as well as our hearts on our quest.
• Never looked back only to see how far we have covered.
• Took the negative words and down force communication from people and recycled them positive.
• Worked smart not hard.
• Thanked people for their help all along.
• Always asked questions and respected peoples views, that way we always got the very best.
• Were grateful to be living in such great moments in mankind’s history.
• Networked like bees, always giving then receiving.
• Used the buddy system.

You see it can be done, stop penalizing yourself for false things you think that keep you tied down. Things that only live inside your head, always growing heavier never moving you forward. Just as there are girls with no future in the near horizon, many boys face the same perils due to ignorance and giving up too early. Billions of words have been written on this subject, but few go digested. There is only one way in my opinion to move, make things SIMPLE!

What do you want? what do you really want? do you want it really bad? does it ache when you don’t have it? do you see yourself having it day and night? does it shake you inside out? does it hurt you? does it live in you and all you can see is IT? if it does then you are ready to move, if not work harder at what you really want.

We all know it, we all feel it and I have rarely been wrong on things to come in this world, only because I listen

Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.  ~T.S. Eliot

Goals are dreams with deadlines.  ~Diana Scharf Hunt

mamdooh.alradadi

me@mamdoohalradadi.com