Can not recall the times in which I felt very lonely at work. Despite the fact that my office is in a workstation filed with many cubicals. It just that I am not socially accepted, even though I am closing my eyes on our huge differences. I do not blame them, but I miss those days in the old office where I had plenty of ppl to hangout with fun & understanding envolved.

Sometimes I get this feeling that its easier to reach a star sitting still than it is to an understanding soul their. Horrifying, but I am learning to cope with it.

The feeling lately is worse since my best friend left the country. So I have started to look for love from the other gender for the first time in my life. I guess love is nothing more than a need. Waiting for this day where I would fill my other’s half need & he will fill mine.

Though this feeling dose not only strikes if you are not surrounded with people. One may feel it for a different number of reasons like:
*if you are rejected in a surrounding
*if you could not click with the surrounding
*trivial reason, when there is no one around you.
* during transformation (exploring new roads)

It is very important to know that it does not mean at all that one is faulty or wrong that why he/she ended up alone.

What can I say Mamdoh, u relay did describe how I feel. Wonderful!